i'm suddenly reminded of how it felt to be part of tkband again. its true, we love tkband and are proud to be part of it. the one for all, all for one spirit is the kind of thing that we come across and experience only once in a lifetime. (maybe in ns too, but that's isn't for me to say.)
what usually escapes being rmbered is the heaviness that weighs down upon hearing tchow call "band fall in" after section lunches, the drudgery we trudge through when we assemble in the parade square. the weird unsettling feeling when we rush into the field, desperately scraping up whatever we have inside us to project a certain eagerness and trying to pretend that as seniors, we are not obliged/ordered to perform this attitude transplant on ourselves.
we come up with stupid things like having competitions between the flutes, the saxes, the clarinets (and whoever that happens to be at the field) to see who reaches the back of the field and gets into block position first. not forgetting the competition to see which section gives the loudest timing/ shouts the loudest when falling out, all for the sake of hoping that our brain accepts the transplant.
the sun the sweat the sunburns the rawness the aches the dragonflies the dirt the ever-rising tempers. the tears that come from stinging sunblock, dripping sweat, frustration at being unjustly yelled at, frustration at being unjustly punished, foul moods, un-vent anger, and combinations of all.
there was little or no subtlety - a distinctive difference between outdoor and indoor.
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i've found out recently, to my disgust, that my memory is selective. so anyway i try to impress the times on my memory, (it just wouldn't stay) hoping that i'm able to get a faint inkling of how it is like, so that i can better understand. so that i can empathize and so that when i say "yeah i know" or when i say "hm oh i think i know what you mean", you know i know what i'm you're talking about.
cyn.
161288.
victorian.
vjc 05S43.
vjcsb.
tpjc (1st 3mths) 05S31.
tksian.
tkband.
khs.
flautist =)
all that i hold dear.
besties(: and lovely lovely friends.
family.
shopping, reading, lazing around.
sweet, pretty, striking colours.
swirls. stripes.
ice cream, chocolate, and the same few constants.