i MUST find myself back and get back on my feet again. i want to..
i'm freezing.
internship at the law firm has been both interesting and boring. basically it has just been all about sitting in at every meeting with the experts, witness and yada yada and copying stuff down. but still it is interesting, despite me having enough free time to actually finish reading a book today.
a charmed life. its like a dream. sometimes when its just too good to be true, you find yourself on the edge and hovering on the verge of flight, preparing yourself for the event when the bar comes crashing down or for the bottom of your world to drop out, all in order to make way for the Real Life.
first choices, then changes, then choices again. stupid vicious cycle. i'm procrastinating the submission of the nus online application form. everything somehow seems a tad too easy its scary, no?
i was just told that i was "very lucky to be able to go to university."
urgh.
and tell me what's wrong with doing law.
i freaking could have what i wanted.
yea i've learnt.
there's the missing sense of satisfaction, of achievement. and then there's disappointment, cos apparently i didn't want it bad enough.
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maybe i should start believing in myself.
-i dearly want peace.
i'm suddenly reminded of how it felt to be part of tkband again. its true, we love tkband and are proud to be part of it. the one for all, all for one spirit is the kind of thing that we come across and experience only once in a lifetime. (maybe in ns too, but that's isn't for me to say.)
cyn.
161288.
victorian.
vjc 05S43.
vjcsb.
tpjc (1st 3mths) 05S31.
tksian.
tkband.
khs.
flautist =)
all that i hold dear.
besties(: and lovely lovely friends.
family.
shopping, reading, lazing around.
sweet, pretty, striking colours.
swirls. stripes.
ice cream, chocolate, and the same few constants.