how did everything go so wrong? you didnt deserve it. whether those people out there care to admit it or not, we all know you never did deserve to go through such hell. omg why. why. so unfair. life is so unfair. such a cliche. but why. why?!! i wanted to give you everything that you gave me, and more. i've already made up my mind to. even though i know saying this wont help, but i'm really sorry. what the heck. nothing we do now can help. what the hell. i'm so sorry. i dont know what it was like; i can only imagine.
its bad enough imagining.
goddammit.
' but maybe Fate isn't the pond you swim in but the fisherman floating on top of it, letting you run the line wild until you are weary enough to be reeled back in. '
mrs yik. the residents of chem r. the lings. hey dude and dudettes. spotted at carrefour. anyhoos, shall get back to mugging soon. i'm so sick of doing physics paper3s. but what the heck. this night be the only chance i have left to get sick of physics paper3. -- i cant believe it. it has been so damn long. but then again, maybe it has been too damn long. hmm. -- something's wrong. i'm time's fool and jammed in the strains of i believe. because of you is also starting to irritate. grr. go away. -lets play a game of twenty questions.
farewell assembly. i was late. LATE!! for farewell assembly! gosh. but luckily they were nice and they let us in.(:
sheesh. everything seems to be so claustraphobic out of a sudden. even lettre a ma mere couldnt diffuse that stuffy-ness. and if i hit the notes any harder, i fear for the state of the piano. gosh. i'm really sorry if i was rude to anyone today. really. i dont usually get so down. or do i? wahaha. time for some soul searching.
argh. go away. dont you dare think its funny huh. cos it isnt. nopes. so. go away. you're upsetting me and causing me extra stress. later i hyperventilate during the 'A's and faint and then i have to be carried out and mrs chan will then have to ask for an extra 20 minutes from the cpe for me how? hurhur. abit extreme. but u get e pt. so. be gone with you.
well, it seemed to be a day for 43.(:
the concert was funny and cheesy and lame and omg! (the teachers! haha mr chow) and all that, albeit being abit elitist. but then again, we all love vj and think that vj is the best and that it rocks the universe, so i suppose its reasonable for us to be elitist once in a while. heh heh! i especially liked the vjc against _ jc one. haha. the throwing of papers and all. oh! and the why study one. loll. i think the lowest point during the concert was the announcing of mrs chan's leaving vj. cant imagine the hci whoever taking over lar. i hope he's as liberal as mrs chan. sheesh. imgine nxt year when we come back to collect a level results then they greet us in chinese. omgosh. i think everyone will just freak out la. but nevertheless, mrs chan's leaving is still sad.
then the band played the victorian anthem, and i almost lost it. i'm really gonna miss playing the national and victorian anthem every friday, no matter how out of tune it is. plus all the rushing that will happen every friday morning, the you're-late-again looks from jien/timothy/qixin/ joan, and the happy hey-you're-also-late! smiles from andrew/joan/qixin. sigh.): anyhoos, mass dance was great, even though i was abit lost. hee! free ice cream and the yummy-licious cake and the vj ring! i think its a super good momento to give. yay i like the ring alot alot alot. its says VJC!(: haha okay ya i know. but i likee.(:
then comes the taking of the class photos. so begins the cam-whoring. haha. clan photos from nowhere. and the clans from nowhere too. haha. chem r and math r and physics r. boys school and the girls school and the mixed school. chinese speaking school and english speaking school. haha. the bus 55 and bus 53 and the walk home clan aka telok kurau clan (ie. zuoyi and i). oh andd. the thompson medical centre and mount elizabeth one. HAHA.
lunch at ps, then cam's house. mahjong! dinner at nydc in suntec. then after that was random photos when walking about in suntec, haha. i think people were thinking we're mad or sth. haha. well.(:
i think vj rocks. everything is like so hyper and spontaneous. school's never boring. well, not really really, anyway. and everyone is up and about and just moving. although i used to be scared and afraid at the thought of schooling at a place i thought was way above my league, i never did regret coming to vj. being a victorian is an experience i'll cherish and always remember.
andd. to 05S43, thank you so so so much for allowing me to be part of you people. i think we're the most random, lamest, bonded, no-meaning, and the best class ever. I LOVE 05S43! thank you, guys, and remember, i love you.(((: hm. i think that was from Barney. haha.
alrighty. bottomline: i love being a victorian. and. i love 05S43. loveee!! <3!
okay! till the next time!(:
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