i'm in disbelief. wonder. whatever you call it. and maybe more than a bit skeptical. i marvel how all this came about in the first place. it seemed as if it isn't happening to me. but oh, it is. its almost surreal. and i doubt the authenticity of it all. i question, but again and again, i have been reassured. still, it isn't working, and it bugs me tirelessly. i suppose i should instil more confidence in myself.
momentum. its all about momentum. i'm supposed to speed up this process, but it ain't working. so i guess i'll just have to try gaining more weight eh? hees. but on second thought, no. it will affect my NAPFA, and i don't want to fail it. yes. for the first time in history, i'm actually worried that i might fail it. heh. i'm becoming less and less fit. all those moments of glory, i have left them back in tk. all of them. 1, 2, and 3. i wonder if i can ever bring those moments back again, but yea, i missed my last x-country, and there goes my last chance. but i doubt i could make it, even if i didn't miss it. its a change, i guess.
there were so many changes.
there always are changes.
in fact, i think i should make a change. one big important significant change. right now. i should stop slacking and start working. seriously.
haha.(:
cyn.
161288.
victorian.
vjc 05S43.
vjcsb.
tpjc (1st 3mths) 05S31.
tksian.
tkband.
khs.
flautist =)
all that i hold dear.
besties(: and lovely lovely friends.
family.
shopping, reading, lazing around.
sweet, pretty, striking colours.
swirls. stripes.
ice cream, chocolate, and the same few constants.