My sweet charade.

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Wednesday, March 22

i'm gonna rant and grumble. you're warned.

i'm tired. and the trip to hawaii is also getting tired. so ma fan la. i almost don't feel like gg already. the horrible semi formal event. i don't have a blouse and a skirt that one would "wear to work". and i don't want to buy. and i'm so tired alr i don't want to go crack my head trying to conjure up something to wear. arghh. and i have yet to pack my stuff. everytime i try to pack, my room gets messier and messier. and my luggage remains clean. goodness. i think my luggage is cursed. i can never pack anything into it. and there are still many other things to be done, like mr ho's essay. he wants it on firday. after all, its already nearly a month overdue. ahhh!! and the physics and math tutorials. i absolutely don't feel like studying. this is horrible.

on a lighter note, i'm gonna bring beloved to read on board. at least i'll force myself to read it! haha. okays. that's all. i'm gonna go and try to pack my luggage.(:

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11:23 PM

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Saturday, March 18

your song.

went back tk today and had trouble with the security guard. idiot didn't let us come in cos we were wearing slippers. wth la. like we knew we weren't supposed to wear slippers. he still asked us to go back home to change to shoes. hello like we all live across the street from tk. felt like taking off my slippers and throwing it at him right there and then. argh.

went ccab with them. it was quite tiring watching them do their formations and hearing them get scolded. wierd. haha. i think at the end of the day i felt as tired and sticky and sweaty as everyone in the main bloack. and apparently outdoor syf now has gold with honours. well well well. let's hope that they are able to clinch that.

jit rui's brother is so cute! jia shin is in love with him. act i wonder how it will feel like to be in a band where your brother is the drum major. kinda cool. and the twins are also super cute! goodness. they are really adorable, especially nicolas. or maybe its because we didn't see kenneth. whatever la. they're so cute!! haha.

today on the bus we met another cute guy! jia shin won him over with m&ms. haha. and she got back half a pack of popcorn in return. he's really friendly and wants to ask his mommy to bring us go watch disney on ice. and the barney car. he eats lunch at night and invited us to his house to watch hi-5. lol. but we didn't know his name cos every time we ask for his name he puts up two fingers and says, "two years old". haha. SO CUTE!!

okays. i'm exhausted. less than a week to hawaii! ooh exciting!((:

Your Song - Ewan McGregor

My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody that this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
Hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

I sat on the roof and I kicked off the moss
Well some of the verses well, they...they got me quite cross
But the sun's been kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see, I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

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10:36 PM

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Thursday, March 16

migrains are disgusting. arghh.

-stop pounding!

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10:48 PM

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Wednesday, March 15

on the edge.

tmr's m for m make up! and i havent done my essay. i'm like soo dead. and wont be doing it today. out at allena's house celebrating my brother's birthday. oh ya. Happy birthday vin! alrights. so i'm not at home and i won't be home till goodnesss knows what time. i'm so full! i feel fat. i like salmon. yum!

had exchange with st pat's today. they're very okay. shall hold my peace. ah yes. crossfire. bah. i don't know if this is good or bad, but i shall have to stop thinking of it soon. the reaction's reversible and well, i might end up in square one. noo! i don't need this man. i've got enough on my hands alr. someone help me! charissa!! :(

its all about maintaining equilibrium.

korea will be cold, i heard. i don't have thicker jackets and i think buying one is a complete waste of money. my dad's afraid of the cold so i won't be going to any cold countries any time with my family. sad. okays. anyone has an extra thick jacket to lend me?

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alrights. i'm back from eating corn and many many marshmallows. gosh i feel real fat. so sinful! ice cream cake later. my my my.

a week to hawaii!! goodness. and we're sharing plane with st pat's. goodness. somewhat intimidating. ahas.

okays. i'm a fat pig alrights. fat fat fat. tmr's urban hike. i don't know how i'm gonna run all around singapore. anws, i'm off to eat ice cream cake. oh yum. i like cookies and cream.((:

-that precarious position.

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7:40 PM

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Monday, March 13

went back with jia shin on sat and met everyone else. so many memories. the sitting down in the field and plucking of grass till the field became so bare. the grass rings. jia shin's wontan mee magic act. and. the flat flautists. lol! haha.

tk has really changed. there are now so many extra stuff, for example, a really huge carpet outside the general office that says welcome in huge letters, and a toilet in the field. like, ?!?!?!?!?!! gosh. anyways, the band is progressing so slowly. the comp is in april, and the whole show isnt up yet. they're still at the stage where people do wrong steps and the horns end up colliding with the tubas. goodness. this was the stage we were at in like, november? oh man i really hope they are able to complete the whole show by april. if not they wouldn't even have chance to vie for best display band. the four years of consecutive best display band will just go down the drain. i'll cry la. gosh. all the sweat and scoldings and long hours under the sun and all the sunburns for nothing. kays. i shall not talk about the main block anymore. i think the sec1s are more amazing. they are able to spin 90 degrees on the wrong leg. don't know how they do it. all the horse kicking and bouncing. haha. but they're cute la. all pint-sized. hoho.

right. changes. they are everywhere arn't they. if there are no changes, living won't be meaningful anymore, will it?

which bag should i bring with me to hawaii?? arghh.

gosh. one more week. one more week to hawaii. and i'm freaking busy. so many things to do! plus joan's birthday is coming up! there's really no time for studies. cannot!! i need to pass up my m for m essay!! mr ho's gonna kill me its overdue. oh yes. and harris's hopeless recreative. haha. that was like what, more than a month ago. i think he can forget about it. sheesh.

went with charissa and qixin to buy presents for our angel and mortal. hoho. shared some lovely stuffs.(: actually i feel much better now that its out. was always so worried that someone too close to home will find out and that'll be the end of me. i'll be too embarrassed to show my face. haha.

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it is beautiful to dream. but dreams can give illusions.

-i dream a little dream.

you.

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11:13 PM

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Sunday, March 12

quiz from antz's blog.(:

You scored as Linguistics. You should be a Linguistics major!

Linguistics

92%

Anthropology

92%

Dance

83%

Theater

83%

Journalism

83%

Sociology

83%

Art

83%

Engineering

75%

English

75%

Biology

75%

Psychology

75%

Philosophy

67%

Chemistry

58%

Mathematics

50%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
created with QuizFarm.com

linguistics?! hmmmm...

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11:47 PM

got my new specs today. i'm kinda wowed by it. the lenses are really thick. sheesh.

-the remembered truths.

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10:32 PM

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Thursday, March 9

first things first. my eye is well again!! the indentation in my left eye un-indented itself. woohoo! no more specs for me man. i look awful in those ancient specs of mine. hoho. new specs new specs! q sad i couldn't use the colourful frames, cos my lenses are too thick. the guy at the shop said they will pop out at the edges, and they only make the super thin lenses only up to the power of 800. bah. so i had to get the thin lenses which is less thin than the super thin one. ya you've got it. haha. i made new contacts too! my left side is super worn out due to wear and tear, so the optician made me make a new one.

actually, i don't know why i'm rambling on and on about all these cos these arn't the point. or should i say, points. i'm really amazed at how my eye can indent itself ( a result of me slping with my contacts on, i suppose) and un-indent itself. well. we pretty amazing, arnt we? our bodies, i meant. and i also realised that once i take out my lenses and wear my specs for like a week, my eyes get super tired. which is wierd, cos most ppl tell me they get tired wearing contacts and they prefer specs. its different for me, i guess. i wear my contacts the whole day and only take them out before i slp. but yea, i've learnt that i have to be versatile. i have to wear my specs more often so i can get used to both.

anws, i would still like to complain. my eyes were so super tired for the last week that i couldn't really focus on one thing for a long period of time. and the thing is, cos my specs are ancient, the power is like, 300 less than the power of my eyes. yea. and during one band prac i squinted and squinted at that stupid dixie land my eyes were so tired till it became mental. as in mentally tired. and i was a little shocked at myself, but, yea. i think qixin was shocked too. but thanks for sticking by me, girl. haha.

hawaii is coming nearer and nearer, and there's like no time for everything. tutorials and horrifyingly long lit make ups, joan's birthday, hawaii preperations, and packing. but its okay. hawaii! how exciting. gotta practice harder man. 2 more weeks!(:

oh yes. my fringe is growing abit longer. yay!

alrights. i've burnt myself out with excitment. and all my rambling. this entry is rubbish. but i need some leeway to channel some of my excess energy don't i. alrighty. i'm tired. dinner! BYE!

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7:11 PM

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Thursday, March 2

gloried.

i'm in disbelief. wonder. whatever you call it. and maybe more than a bit skeptical. i marvel how all this came about in the first place. it seemed as if it isn't happening to me. but oh, it is. its almost surreal. and i doubt the authenticity of it all. i question, but again and again, i have been reassured. still, it isn't working, and it bugs me tirelessly. i suppose i should instil more confidence in myself.

momentum. its all about momentum. i'm supposed to speed up this process, but it ain't working. so i guess i'll just have to try gaining more weight eh? hees. but on second thought, no. it will affect my NAPFA, and i don't want to fail it. yes. for the first time in history, i'm actually worried that i might fail it. heh. i'm becoming less and less fit. all those moments of glory, i have left them back in tk. all of them. 1, 2, and 3. i wonder if i can ever bring those moments back again, but yea, i missed my last x-country, and there goes my last chance. but i doubt i could make it, even if i didn't miss it. its a change, i guess.

there were so many changes.

there always are changes.

in fact, i think i should make a change. one big important significant change. right now. i should stop slacking and start working. seriously.

haha.(:

-inspiration is all you need.

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10:50 PM

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Wednesday, March 1

you should stop looking forwards to tomorrow. cos what happens is, tomorrow becomes today.

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6:51 PM