My sweet charade.

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Wednesday, November 30

sectionals this morning. was roaringly irritated.

had flute sectional lunch combined with e saxes. omg. it was so long since i ever laughed till like that.

went to timothy's house. haha! both timothy and his brother are damn funny. haha.

there's 4c class outing tmr! and i didn't know! bah. and i can't go. this is so saddening. boo.

yeaah okays that's about all!

oh. and i really really don't like cocky guys with big egos. hees!

- mosquito variations! haha..

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10:28 PM

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Tuesday, November 29

hey!

So i'm back from my vacation. well.. bangkok's abit more fun this time, owing to psychology. i find it a very interesting thing to note. you know, the mentallity that stuff in bangkok are cheaper, and so daddy's more prone to buying more expensive stuff for me. like, levi's and adidas and so on. not that i'm complaining. haha yays.

but all the cheap stuff are like.. bleah. ( no tie no tie, canno tie, this one one sye onlee. on offer mam, twenhy phur-cen discou, so canno tie) and i believe all the thai girls are like at least a size smaller than me. and if i can't try on whatever shirt that caught my eye, how do i know that it will fit me? so i had to give up buying shirts on " twenhy phur-cen discou". yeouch.

oh i had a fun time feed fishes there too. catfishes, i think they are. soo huge somemore. as in damn huge. and i also had a fun time venturing in the palace grounds. its like.. so cool! the palaces are absolutely lovely. and HUGE. one is done in a victorian style and another looked like it came right out of the huang zhu ge ge show. except that it is airconed. haha. lucky people, these thai kings and queens and princes and princesses. goodness.

anyhows, the air there is really, really bad. argh. it is super dry. once i reached there my face started peeling. and no i didn't bring cream or moisturiser or whatever. couldn't be bothered to. Boo. and i came back with a throat infection that lead to a sore throat! bah. and as all sore throats of mine went, it was accompanied by flu and fever. disgusting. thank goodness the fever didn't last and on mon i could go for prac, even though i felt sqeasy woosy and only sat in and was ard 2 hours late. ( e sqeasy woosy feeling was worse in e morning. my legs were octopus tentacles.)

saw qixin and the others. haha. brought the earings and caught up on many things! hees. oh man. i think i like singapore much, much better.

gtg. feeling sqeasy woosy again. goodness. i'm not myself these days. okays! i'm jellyfish-ing myself out of here. till next time! *waves (with an octopus tentacle)*

-wobbly woobly wooby

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4:27 PM

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Tuesday, November 22

recently in my neighbourhood came a drumset, or a band (i just heard the bass guitar.) in addition to the already exsiting piano, flute, trumpet, clarinet, dizi and yangqin. oh my goodness. i don't know what to make of it. i'm like half amused and irritated. haha. my meighbourhood is like.. heh. musical? but already the drumset and bass guitars are competing against the clarinet, which is by the way, playing flight of the bumblebee as warmup. again. i think the clarinet guy is damn pro. anyways, i decided yest to do individuals today cos i won't be touching my flute until next mon. and goodness knows i need practice. okay. everyone knows that i need practice. ditto. i think i'll end up shutting myself in my room and suffocating myself and wishing that the drumsticks will somehow hit the person on the drumset on the head and render him unconscious. maybe the clarinet guy can go over and do sth about the guitars too. (the clarinet guy and i have no choice but to be reluctant allies and try to get rid of this new noisier.. invasion? of musical space together. haha. and the drumset and the guitarist lives in the house beside him. i'm opposite them. haha. so, well. its his job, i guess. hohoho.)

anyhows, joan and qixin came over to make our second lunch yest! haha. the soup was alright but i think we added too little ingredients (the potatoes were a little small and we didn't add celery as instructed in the recipie) and the milk base turned out a little too strong and i added a little too much sugar. oops! heh. oh and qixin forgot to bring the dvds. horrible girl. and after out cooking session we were too tired to do any work. joan slept while qixin and i talked and observed people, and we learnt a few things.

maybe its me who is too sensitive, but i can't help thinking. i mean, if you really want to give a birthday present, then do it sincerely. don't get a present in name only. if you don't really want to give the present and is obliged to give the present, then don't. i won't want to recieve a present knowing that it wasn't sincerely given and spend my time trying to guess who was the person who really bothered to actually go get my present etc. and wondering if the person who went to get my present is really sincere or was he/she also obliged to? this just spoils all the fun of getting a present. i mean, guarenteed, i'm also guilty of doing this, but. you get my point. i'd rather not get a present. and i'll try in the future not to do this to anyone. ahas.

but qixin and joan says that i'm a tad too sensitive so i shall give the matter rest. =) i shall now concentrate my energies on packing/thinking of what to pack for tmr's vacation. oh man, this reminds me of the hawaii trip. daddy lets me go but then, because i'm nice, i think i shall take the shopping money for the trip out of my own savings. or maybe not. haha. let's see how nice i'm feeling when its closer to mid march next year, shall we? mehehehehe.

oh dear, i think that i am evil.

alrights. i shall think and plan what i shall bring to.. of all places, thailand, bangkok, the second singapore. i must remember to bring along my chem notes to read!

oh man, i can't believe it. i'm such a good girl! =)

-the paradoxes of life is a paradox in itself.

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10:29 AM

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Sunday, November 20

look through the window.

see the bustling world with its busy streets.
see the little room with its four square walls.

and i wonder,
if it is the world which is closing you out
or is it you who is shutting the world out?

-passion.

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10:34 AM

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Friday, November 18

dingdingdongdong.

well i think my lil bro's kinda pro. first in class and a model pupil. oh man. respect respect.

okays i havent been running for like a thousand years and i feel darned fat. FINALLY i'm going running tmr! although its only two rounds for safety's sake, but still.. yays!

oh i think i can do the past year exam papers soon! haha so exciting. and joan and qixin are coming over next mon to study after band! we're gonna cook our own lunch! our second cooking experiment. so fun! i think we'll end up using campbell's, but i want to learn to make creamy soup myself! but that means buying ingredients. ahas. i'm now super broke! and i still wanna watch so many movies! just like heaven and harry potter and when it comes out, narnia.

suddenly i got the urge to watch all the disney stuff. haha. it must be the christmas festive mood. everytime christmas is here everything becomes so disney and so full of fantasy. i like =)

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

watch the petals fall-

a beautiful blood red, bold against the frost on the door.

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7:34 PM

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Monday, November 14

sometimes people just see what they want to see. they call this self-delusion.

so yea.

i tink you're self-delusioned, and i don't know how you managed to drag so many people into this affair.

gong xi fa cai.

you're just so lame. really.

this sounds like some elaborate plan in which you've driven a dozen holes into the fabric of it yourself.

it sounds like some movie in which the glamorous opening appears to take you into the heart of the show. the cameras start rolling, and you see the conclusion. act one scene one, WHAM! you're thrown back to earth. open your eyes to reality. the people and scenery look like paper cut-outs. the plot falls flat.

ditto. and you're the director of your own movie. and in your own paradise. knock knock. hello? anyone home? or have you rented out that space?

i know it is horrible of me to gloat, and i'll most probably get huge blisters on my tongue/fingers for this, but..

i feel like a million bucks right now, in cold, hard cash.

-smirk.

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12:32 AM

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Sunday, November 13

zoinked.

i'm feeling kinda sianded right now. bah. sent my phone for repair yesterday, so i'm using some lao pok phone that only seems to receive selective msges. and its a day late at that. argh. so irritating. the nokia centre closes at 5 today and i decided to go collect my phone at 5. how smart. as a result i have to put up with this phone for another day. and i don't have any contacts, as all my contacts are saved in my phone. SIM card no space. yea. so if anyone wanna msg me, pls tell me who you are. unless its obvious. hees.

-

i tink that my grandpa's dog super lonely. the door linking my grandparents' house to mine was opened, and it ran over. poor thing. nobody was home, and i heard it crying in the morning. got to bring it out with my someday when i go running. but i'll have to get that spray thing to spray it with so that it won't get ticks before i bring lexus out. yea. the dog's called lexus. grandpa's a car lover. wonder why he doesn't call the dog BMW or mecedes or volvo. more expansive. isn't it? haha. alrights. i know nuts about cars.

-

band tmr. make up lect tmr too.

i guess it wierd. how the human mind works. how this brain of mine up there needs to gain momentum in order to do sth. p=mv. its currently rusty with disuse and the mere thought of going for a make-up lect is just so.. wierd. heh. seems like its too rusty to come up with some other adjective, huh. hees.

kiss and say byebye to the 3 R papers. i really have to start oiling my brain soon. bah. oh wells. *shrug*

-zonked out

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9:17 PM

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Thursday, November 10

look!

time for an update!

mon. PW'S OVER!! yays! woohoo! atiquah's group was before mine, and the examiners attacked their project like crazy. i became super nervous, no thanks to them. i thought jx coming late in e morn was bad enough. they wanted to bar him from the exam la! OMGoodness! and they wanted to re-shedule our group. like, WTH? he said he overslept. oh yeah. from victoria hall. wth. victoria hall is like only 2 bus stops away? and he overslept? hello?

then when our group was setting everything up, he told us he is changing his script, that he's gonna talk 2 minutes of sth else (meaning nonsense) before he launch into the slides. ohmygosh. it was something on what binomics or some whatever. the whole group freaked out. we were damn scared the examiners will ask us about binomics. and we don't even know what the heck is that. thank goodness e examiners couldn't even understand him. heh. and thank goodness my presentation turned out right, even if peimin and atiquah said that it was kinda animated and drama. haha. i screwed up my question though. but heck. as long as i didn't say that the rooftops clogged with stagnant leaves, its fine. haha. peifang said that when i got it right, i had this super big self-satisfied smirk on my face. goodness. haha.

tues. waited like forever for jx to turn up. went school at 915, waited for him till like 11 or sth. great. and he wanted to come at 12. finished gpf! YAYS! pw is officially over! oh man. i'm gonna miss everybody (yl, dan, pf and bomb. period.) , all the things we did together, and the digressions. especially the digressions. ahas.

went to bugis after that. ate lunch. oh. had a weird encounter when i was lunching. ahas. not bad though. had an ego boost. *grins* walked about. some interesting things. many beautiful stuff. must go there with mummy really soon. met ame.(= went to cut hair at toni&guy acedemy. oh man. my hair now is so layered! BOO. it feels so funny. like so thin. but its okay la. the experience wasn't as bad as i thought it will be. but i don't like! i want my last time hair back. i want more hair!!

wed. can't rmb what happened.

kays. i'm gonna watch my 9 o'clock show! tata!

-this is as old as time, but don't judge a person by her looks.

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8:53 PM

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Monday, November 7

to cut or not to cut? bah.

that is the question.

-

we found that 7 out of 10 houses had their rooftops clogged with stagnant leaves, resulting in stagnant water.

the remains of the insect is either blown away by rain wind or washed away by wind rain.

geez.

-one more day!

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11:00 PM

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Sunday, November 6

teehees!

okays. updates updates.

fri. went to joan's house after band. cooked lunch! ahas. big success! even though the soup didn't turn out to be as horrible as we thought it would. ahas. yea! and the apple was nice. and the whole meal was healthy! (minus the overloading of honey, that is.) yum!

oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YILING! i'll try to get your pres asap ya? LOVEE!!(:

-

sat. nothing much. daddy sent his car to service, so he took mummy's car. so we were car-less and stranded at home. BOO. couldn't sneak out for a lil shopping spree. so yeah.

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sun. woke up late! didn't eat breakfast before going out for lunch. ahas. its really some restaurant! the amount of food was like, WOW. sushi and soup ans pasta and dim sum and salads and the dessert! yumyum. plus the chocolate fountain. oh my. ahas. sinful!

okays. i sound like a pig. i badly need to exercise.

i really love the heels. woots!

PW!

and pw tomorrow too. bah. pw's eating up my life... and all my beautiful sundays.

class chalet!

teehees.

-unkempt.

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9:41 PM

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Tuesday, November 1

so irritabalizable!

i just got a bone for my mp3! hahas. its like damn cute. and its PINK =) yays.

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argh. this inertia is killing me. inertia is the measure of mass... right? okays. i've forgotten my stuff already. so under the pressure of having to sit for 3 r papers, i'm like.. not moving. can't move!! argh. i've really got to start working!! bah.

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i feel darn fat! ate out like almost everyday? yest before celebrating my grandparent's birthday at some hotel i had dessert at delifrance with qixin. and today i finished up the ben and jerry's chocolate chip and cookie dough. not the whole pint, but a bit of it. but i've been eating a little bit of it everyday and no one had touched the ice cream but me. so effectively i've finished up a whole pint of ben and jerry's chocolate chip and cookie dough throughout the span of a week. yeah. congrets. gong xi fa cai (ms rajan. haha.)

anyhows, i'm in a damn irritable mood today. and the hot and humid weather wasn't helping me one iota. bah.

i'm so irritated! at myself. arghs.

so so so super irritated.

so so so so so irritable.

argh.

aleiruglivegu5yq39uhtdjfgbale.

hees.

-sdshfsdliucfhaeibfuvhalieurvybw

hmph.

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11:18 PM