`my swirls-*
Friday, September 30

fiddlesticks, bolts and shackles.

fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, shame on me.

-

heh. coordinate geometry coordinate geometry! bah. all e parabolas and hyperbolas and circles are ellipsing around in my head. ahas. woots. okays. anyhows, today was stressful. although i would have better liked to study in a classroom, it was still quite nice to study by the scrabble board. its not very windy, but its cooling. but a little too insect-y. heh. quite a few ants flying around, but as long as you concentrate on your work, they don't really bother you.

alright. i don't know why am i giving a report about my experience studying by the scrabble board. hahas.

okays. maybe i know, but. argh. that's not the point, right?

-

so this is where the difference starts, the boundary where one lifetime ends and another begins. enter.
welcome to the real world.

-

that clarinet guy staying opposite my house is having a helluva time playing flight of the bumble bee. heh. he's kinda pro. hees.

-

i'm really tired. both mentally and physically. and you just HAD to add on to it didn't you?
fie on you.

-

just talked and talked till my throat hurt. bleahs. hope u understand what u're doing, vincent. if not.. its kinda late. heh. kinda. a little. whatever.

-

okies! back to coordinate geometry. i'm not gonna slp till i complete this damned topic today. if not i'm so screwed. okays. not me. but my promos will be so screwed. bleahs. anyhows, BYE!


-your words can't bring me down.

`swirl me away
9:16 PM

THE accident

It was a hit and run.
A gasp of shock and, bam!, the edge of pain blunt.

It was a hit and run.
A matter of mere seconds, but the damage was done.

It was a hit and run.
just like that, she was harmed.
Did u care how much?
Did u even bother to stop, look, or help?
No, you did not a single one.

It was only a hit and run.
-cyn

`swirl me away
10:32 AM

`my swirls-*
Thursday, September 29

freak.

freak it. you don't have to go to such great extents and take such great pains to lie to me.

puerility at its best.

and what for, anyway?

i don't see the point.

one just doesn't go around finding joy and laughter at the expense of others.

especially at the expense of others.

freak it.

i'm not an idiot, and i sure as hell don't like to be treated as one.

freak it.


freak it, and damn you.




-well.
rejoyce.
its your turn now,
and you can take everything and stuff it.

`swirl me away
11:55 PM


alright... i don't know what wrong with blogger, but. erm. its abit wierd. heh. as in.. wierdly-wierd. okays. now maybe i'm e one who's wierd. argh. okies anyhows, i'm losing my motivation to study! arghs. began slacking after yesterday's cartel after gp paper. oh and btw chem spa skill A was so screwed. went into the lecture theatre to blank out. so pro right. ahas. wadever. let's not talk about spa.

now where was i? oh yes. losing my motivation to study. yeps. i seem to have lost all the wee bit of determination and discipline i have after lunching at cartel with qixin and andrew. wth. i tink its the screwed spa skill A and the equally screwed gp.

and i was supposed to study with zihua today! then in e end it was postponed to tmr, and i stayed at home the whole day and did practically nothing.

i shall sit down in the canteen at 9am tomorrow and study till 9pm!! argh. i really don't know how to make up for lost time! i think i need a miracle. which would precisely be a miracle if i were to get it, since i can't see any reason why i should, cos its all my fault that i'm slacking!

...

whatever.

-

hah. know i know what happens when two people from stubborn stock explodes into each other's face, and apparently, too proud to apologize to each other and say "i'm sorry".

heh.

-

okies. i'm going off to watch the last 15 mins of the 7 o'clock shui ling long show. tata~!

so much for discipline, eh. haha.



-cyn is such a slacker.

`swirl me away
7:43 PM

`my swirls-*
Wednesday, September 28

strangers in the night.

we've reached a lull.

Strangers In the Night ~ Frank Sinatra
Strangers in the night exchanging glances
Wond'ring in the night
What were the chances we'd be sharing love
Before the night was through.

Something in your eyes was so inviting,
Something in you smile was so exciting,
Something in my heart,
Told me I must have you.

Strangers in the night, two lonely people
We were strangers in the night
Up to the moment
When we said our first hello.
Little did we know
Love was just a glance away,
A warm embracing dance away and -

Ever since that night we've been together.
Lovers at first sight, in love forever.
It turned out so right,
For strangers in the night.

strangers in the night.

ahas.

sweet sweet irony.




-Ever stop to think, and forget to start again?

`swirl me away
12:28 AM

`my swirls-*
Saturday, September 24

a beautiful old song =)

Now and Forever- Richard Marx
Whenever i'm weary
From the battles that rage in my head
You make sense of madness
When my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way, but still you
Seem to understand
Now & forever,
I will be your man

Sometimes i just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune
That heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you
Each and every way i can
Now & forever,
I will be your man

Now i can rest my worries
And always be sure
That i won't be alone, anymore
If i'd only known you were there
All the time,
All this time. . .

Until the day the ocean
Doesn't touch the sand
Now & forever
I will be your man

`swirl me away
8:13 PM

`my swirls-*
Thursday, September 22

completion =)

wahas!! i've finally finished my ted hugHes essay and EoM!! and its was done all by today! oh my goodness. i feel so accomplished! WAHAS. *gringringrin* and best of all, i found my earstick with the B-E-A-yoou-tiful sweet lil pink star on it. YAYS!! now i dun hafta buy another one from Helen again! hehes. HOWEVER, i've not done any single work that has got to do with REVISING FOR THE UPCOMING PROMOS!!! drats. argh.

but somehow, life doesn't look as bleak today!! ahh... must be the yays-i-finally-completed-the-seemingly-never-finished-ted-hughes-essay-which-is-three-weeks-overdue-and-the-dratted-and-much-problematic-EoM-euphoria!! WOOHOO!

ahhs. speaking of EoM, i can't help but be disgusted over my comments that ms rajan gave. i mean, pls. gimme a break. i slaved over my first draft till 3am in e morning, and the next day -wells, maybe not the next day. it was on the day itself- i got back my EoM, hoping to get a few comments as to improve it cos the final draft is due on fri. WELL. there were many ticks on the first page. one tick per para and two ticks per long para. then i turned over, really hopeful to get some critisism, and all i see there is a big GD. not good as in g-o-o-d good, but good as in a g-d good.

ahhh. ms rajan, a woman of few words.

ARGH. i was like super pissed off la! Eggs-cuse me, i want some comments, and it is as though she didn't even read my whole EoM!! and -wad e hell- she din even bother to spell out e gd. argh. great. so i can just pass up my first draft and submit it as my final EoM on the spot right? argh. i'm so sorry, ms rajan, if you're reading this now, but. argh. its just so argh.

and the worse thing is, i came school today at 1230 to pass up my hughes essay, study ted hughes with qixin, and personally ask her to pinpoint the mistakes in my "gd" first draft. i went to find her during the supposedly gp lesson. (cos she -surprise surprise- cancelled it again. GP lessons are seriously permenantly cancelled on thurs for e rest of the year.) well, i went to find her at the stuff rooms and.. she was gone. she left. as in. she left school already. dan was there and he told me. i was like, WTH?!?!!

WTH?!

okies.

wadever.

anyways, mr ho had kindly offered to look at my draft and he gave me a few comments. so. EoM is done, and is a thing of the past. hopefully. ahas.








`its you.
-
i'm enchanted =)

`swirl me away
9:33 PM

`my swirls-*
Wednesday, September 21

ted hugHes. EoM.




















































































blank out.

`swirl me away
10:56 PM

`my swirls-*
Saturday, September 17

lost in time.

did nothing today! only finished writing my periodic table notes. of which i took 2 bloody days to complete. argh. atomic structure is half digested, and i'm still chewing on chem bonding. argh. i can never finish the syllabus in time. i'm still at... yea chem bonding (yuks!) and there are only 16 days to promos. and that is if you don't count gp. if you count gp as the beginning of promos, there are.. umm.. right. 10 days left. and my trigonometry is still in a mess.. and let's just take it that vectors are not tested. yuks. i'm disgustingly, desperately way way wayy behind time, and i don't know how to make up for lost time.

i'm not gonna make it.

wth.

kiss say byebye to my beautiful laptop.

sigh.

-

on a lighter note, i just saw my cousin! she's super cute la. she came into my room and started to play around with my micro compo. changing cds and tracks and playing with the fast forward and pause button. thank goodness she din jam up the whole thing. then she started dancing (that is if jumping around is considered as dancing) to abba gold. hahas. so farni. uber cute. lol.

and my other cousin came over too. he's even cuter la! he just lost two of his front tooth and he went around showing his toothy grin and talking a mile a minute at the same time. i couldn't understand a single thing he was saying. ah. the gibberrish a three year old can come up with. amazing. hahas.

then they bugged me to teach them how to draw a flower (the one that i always draw) and both of them started messing up my little whiteboard by drawing flowers and hearts and stars and what not on it. and they claimed that it was the most beautiful piece of art they've every seen.

goodness. -_-""

kids. hahas.

-swish.
and there goes time..

`swirl me away
11:03 PM

`my swirls-*
Thursday, September 15

crumble

well here i go again, i see the crystal visions.
i keep the visions to myself,
it's only me that wants wrap around your dreams and have you any dreams you'd like to sell?

-

as far as i can see, the future looks bleak. totally. in every single way. argh

-

Even though it made me dependent, i thank god that that the people and things closest to me have always stayed beside me even through the biggest mega change in my life.

however in life one must still face the inevitable.

i've been finding myself facing my biggest fear of being alone more often than not this year.

again, again, and yet again.

The thought of being thrown into a situation alone scares the hell out of me.

so i'm happy to say that so far, i've tried to make the best out of everything i have, and i'm surviving. just barely, but still surviving nonetheless.

but they come with adverse effects. ahas.

oh well...

-

i gonna see them leave me! argh.

alrights. i'm not gonna go around moping.

i shall make the best out of what i have, come what may.

-

i'm still trying to find myself. isn't this what life mostly is about? so. please understand and let me be.

-

okays this entry is a mish mash of thoughts.

i'm not gonna mope around. so, so not.

umm... yeah! (=




-break and crumble

`swirl me away
5:56 PM

`my swirls-*
Monday, September 12

tears in heaven.

i know i'm not supposed to be here, but i just had to take a trip down memory lane. i heard it on the radio, and i thought of you.


Tears In Heaven-Eric Clapton

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way through night and day
'Cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven

Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart, have you begging please

Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven

`swirl me away
5:44 PM

`my swirls-*
Friday, September 9

all reason and no point

havent come online for almost a week already. almost. not quite. ahas. so much for trying to abstain from the com. anyways, with the exception of my cough and occasional loss of voice, i'm as right as rain. and the slight headache i'm having now is just a slight disturbance that is happening at the most improper and inconvenient time. ahas.

alrights. i'm in a bitchy mood right now. BAH. wadever wadever.. okie. maybe not bitchy. just like.. feeling irritated and kinda.. pissed?! hahas. i dunch noe. argh. i'm a tangle of shattered, jumbled, untangible emotions.

maybe the basis of it is because after five days, my ear is still blocked!! argh. irritating!

argh. i'm ready to snap at someone. ROAR.

tsk. feeling so irritable.

alrights. no more work for me for the rest of tonight. tonight shall be an off day, or rather, an off night for me. i don't tink i can do anymore work anyway. hees.

-

problems. they come grappling at you from every corner. reaching out, trying to take you in. trying to complicate your already hectic life. as if you are not squeezed breathless and blue in the face already.

-

the human mind is mysterious. it defines humans. how they tink. what they do. how they do. oh well. but one thing is for sure. that mind is yours, whether you like it or not. it is a permenant resident in your head. don't go around telling people you weren't in the right frame of mind. to start of with, there are no frames in your head and you din't go around framing up your mind-that's quite palpable.

-

wadever. hahas. those were just randomness. kind of. hees. alrighty! till e next time! adios!



-and now i begin to wonder the reason why, why, why?
why did i let myself fall?
why did i put myself through it all?
WHY?
-
learning point.

point taken.

`swirl me away
11:09 PM

`my swirls-*
Sunday, September 4

argh. float!

friday was fun, going high and acting bimbo and taking fotos and all. but somehow, i get the feeling that i'll never haf the fotos. ahas. wonder why. hmmm. i wan the fotos!! cos............................. hahas. but friday was sad too. had the last prac with lao shi. and it was so short somemore! argh. even though i dunnoe him for very long, i'll miss him. i mean, who wouldn't? he's like so cute and he's the most patient conductor i've ever met. compare him with lawrence siao. tsk. and the new conductor's coming in after promos. argh. i'm like damn scared la. cos i'm lousy and stuff. sigh. gotta practice more!! bah.

okays. i noe the above doesn't make sense. haha. i dunch noe. i'm certainly not making sense to myself right now. and i'm feeling kinda weak and like..floating. whee~!

fever. sore throat. bah. and i believe quite alot of blood was taken from me today for dunnoe wad kind of tests. many many tests. checking for dengue. hahas! so weird. if i got dengue then it'll be damn convenient for my pw. ha. okies. i shall stop here cos i'm not making any sense of what i've written. thank goodness tomorrow's a holiday. praise the lord.

yada yada. i'm outta here. ZzZzz

`swirl me away
9:23 PM

`my swirls-*
Thursday, September 1

clips, hairbands, earings and... pencil box!

whee! alrights i've got a title for my untitled work now. ahas. thanks chelle! but i tink e moon one is so lame it shuld be censored. wahahas. okies. i shall take it away before i expose myself and show the world how lousy i am. wahas.

yesterday. din go back to tk cos everybody seem either to end late or have school. bleahs. no point going back. so went to tm with qixin instead. haas. haven been there in ages. bought hairbands and a earstick. which i like very much. ahas.

met chelle for lunch! haven seen that girl in ages! yays. hope to see her again soon! =)

went to bugis after that. bought so manymany things!!!! ahas. a pencil box and earings and ahas! the surfbay skirt!!! woots!! saw it at tm with qixin but haf no money. hahas. but later got ppl sponser. hahas. thanks ah pek!! kiss kiss! love!!! wahahas.

celebreated xiao wen's birthday at swensons! with wenting, jing xian, kip hoe, gab. ahas! so farni. jingxian and xiao wen were like going gaga over kip hoe. hahas. they found him cute and even took neoprints with him specially. hahas.

anywaes.. yest was completely cool and fun and tiring. hehehes. and i had alot of fun. thanks ah pek for spending time with me. LOVE =)

okies. off to do work now. till next time! BYE!!


- slapped in the face by the irony of life.
and u tell me i look cute with blush on my cheeks.

hahas.

`tis' inevitable.

`swirl me away
9:50 PM






cyn. 161288. victorian. vjc 05S43. vjcsb. tpjc (1st 3mths) 05S31. tksian. tkband. khs. flautist =)




all that i hold dear. besties(: and lovely lovely friends. family. shopping, reading, lazing around. sweet, pretty, striking colours. swirls. stripes. ice cream, chocolate, and the same few constants.


chelle. lijuaan. janice. yong qi. amelia. wenting. vincent. allena. meow. rach. kim. stef. andrew. qixin(= charissa. tracy. fujing. Junrong. jiening. xinyu. anna.

vjc 05S43-*.
atiqah. camillus. chiew shan. chin chong. darren. francis. janice. louisa. timothy.

image station. photobucket.

05/2005. 06/2005. 07/2005. 08/2005. 09/2005. 10/2005. 11/2005. 12/2005. 01/2006. 02/2006. 03/2006. 04/2006. 05/2006. 06/2006. 07/2006. 08/2006. 09/2006. 10/2006. 11/2006. 12/2006. 01/2007. 02/2007. 03/2007. 04/2007. 05/2007.

[Hugs-*]

angel candy.