she is going to try, and try.
and the soft hue winked out.
the black mouth of devastation devoured her.
ahas. the product of a boring physics lecture. hees. okays fine. i know it was my fault that i din bring my notes. hees.
moon.
- CENSORED -
okays. so this is a rather lame piece of work, but hahas. i was trying not to fall asleep during mr wong's lessons. heh. actually thinking back now, mr wong reminds me of mr loke, jus that mr wong has a louder voice and is a lil wee bit more confident. ahas. mr loke. hahas. memories. those were the days. (:
- mental note to self: sometimes things just don't go your way.
oh dear. i suddenly realised that i can't play the piano anymore. argh. my sight reading has became from bad to worse. aHHHH!!!! sigh. okays that was kinda random. lalalalaaaa..........
hahas! soo many things in just 2 days! *BIGgrins* =))
driuohvybeasywb3847g89ygav9
arghhhhhhhhhhhh. i'm going ballistic. arghs. arghs. arghs. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! -sux.
argh. chaucer-ing night now. sigh. e essay was due on fri but i din do it. as usual. ahas. dunno how am i supposed to pass it up to mr ho on mon and wad excuse i am supposed to give, but that's kinda outa e point, cos i don't even have an essay to pass up to him. argh. SOS. sumbody help me please. arghs.
the double edged sword.
i've yet to do my two lit essays that are due tomorrow. ahas. i'm so screwed.
this morning started out with me feeling wierd. edgy. like something's gonna happen. dunchnoe wad. but just sth. but anyhows, nth big really happened today. hees. but just that i woke up with half of my hair feeling super dry that it hurt when i tried to run a comb throught it. exactly half of my hair. my right side. its so wierd la. u don't wake up one day and bingo! you have half a headful of dry hair.
well mixed and blended. emotions. excess of fustration anger and confusion. they swirl, bits and pieces.
freak it. freak it. freak it freak it freak it freak it freak it freak it freak it freak it freak it.
yest was fun. din go ecp in the end cos they cancelled e bbq and din tell me abt it. *GLARE* ao in e end i stayed for dinner and watched the island! quite cool but i tink it wuld be better in the cinema. with all e sounds and all those. hahas. anywaes i had fun =) oh no. so manymany things to do. and to be done by todae. and so far i've done... none. zilch. zero. not even a single one. BAH. alrights. i'll start doing work by... 130. which is.. NOW. alrighty. BYE!!
alrighty. so mummy and daddy and vincent and wilson haf all left me alone at home to my oreo cookies and organic chem notes. which i am trying oh-so-hard to comprehend now while blogging, with 7th night of july playing from the hi-fi in my room and my brother's trumpet bag beside the com, which i am using, in his room. and i'm supposed to eat dinner around some 30 mins later with him and i'm gonna have a bbq at east coast like 2 hours later. hmmmmmmm.
alrighty! hehes. today's such a fun day. but i din go back to tk and i din get to cut hair in the end. but i did go for section lunch plus movie then class outing. so fun. charlie and e chocolate factory's nice. hehehs. chocolate chocolate chocolate!!! hahas. but its costs $9.50. alamaks. super de duper ex la. haiz. but its nice. willy wonka's super sadistic. hahas. sadistic sense of humour. so farni. anyhows, im broke. hahas. plus i paid e flute fund to joan. so now i'm left with zero dollars.
first pw, then pop by tk to celebrate mrs chee's birthday, then off to cut hair, then hopefully in time for lunch, then movie with section, before having dinner with classmates. PHEW. busy busy busy day tmr!! arHhhhhhhhhhhhh..........
oh shoots. i totally forgot that i have to send teresa off with the tuition bums. alamak. sigh. busy busy busy.. thank goodness i was reading my blog entries and saw it. phew.
*dances*
Theology
yays! so long never blog oleadi. no time! there's always no time for everything. BAH.
yada yada yada yada.........................
i've been eating and eating these few days. tsk. suddenly i'm forever hungry. argh. i think i've put on weight. help!!
oh shoots! i just rmbered i haf mock chem spa skill A!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!! gotta go!!
and yet.....
aha..
weakness.
went to cut my hair on thursday! its like.. FINALLY!! hahas. wanted to cut it for like eons ago and i finally got the chance cos school ended early on thurs. the feeling of being able to end school before 3 and managed to reach home before 5 in months is super great. hahaas. anyhows, i went for sth like a trim. so now my hair is about 2 and a half inches shorter, and my mom is 40 bucks poorer. tsk. dunch noe why they charge so much for long hair. i tot it was easier to cut long hair. hmm. but never mind. i still got my haircut and i'm happy =)
yays soooooooo exciting!! during band prac they said that if we're going for overseas trip it might either be in australia or HAWAII!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH *screams* i wanna go HAWAII!!ahhhhh!!!! hahas. sooooooooo super uber de duper exciting!!!!!! *another scream* ahhhhhh!! but if we go australia we get to play in sydney opera house!!! * jump jump jump* ahhhhH!! exciting!! woots woots woots!! heees can't wait! can't wait for next year. *WIDEgrin* mehehehehheeee =D
went with e band peeps to dinner yest. ahas! had ice cream at swensons!! =) so sinful. wahahas. so fudgy. anyhows, they band ppl were super friendly and i had so much fun. wahahahahs! so happy =)
oh and daddy's back from taiwan!! ahas. and he bought me some flute scores complete with a cd that provides piano accompaniment so i can play along with it. =) and he bought trumpet scores for my bro and piano scores for my mom. YAYS! and the piano scre got yu jian!! i've been looking all over for that score but couldn't find it. ahas. now i can kope from mummy!! =p yays!
alrighty! my fingers are itching to try out the yu jian score so.. tata!! =)
but she can't,
reality check.
sometimes, things are just meant to be.
She gets a little
Lost,
sometimes,
Without it.
Our lives.
His laughter,
Her tears.
Your eyes,
My lies.
Missing.
Something's missing.
It feels-
odd,
a little
dejected.
Somehow.
don't know how,
but,
Don't understand it,
don't try to.
Don't you dare to.
'cos,
i'm lost.
The empty shell cackles and snaps,
an old woman.
The old woman smiles.
BURN.
--
lit, lit and lit. argh. i'm just starting to appreciate mr ho's lessons. yays. it isn't too late. i still haf 1 more proper lesson and one more make up lesson on chaucer with him. ahas. hmmm.
but sad to say, i'm still oblivious to mr ng's efforts, if he's making any. and i STILL feel like wacking him everytime he takes us. i hope he chokes on his celery or beans or wadever. AHAS! hehehehees..
felt kinda sad demoralised and out of sorts today. felt totally miserable. hmmm. i wonder why. hees. anywaes, i cheered up after e break with e help of qixin and marcus and joan. ahas. that's wad friends are for =) YAYS!!!
was completely happy after that. especially after prac. dunno why, but everyone was just so friendly. ahas. yays!!
completely rad. =D
fiuvybao4w7eyovneriuz4btawtaeo..
seurhvtbaeyrvliuw4bhbnsrulvn.
EAROUIS47YGPBG8HEVN8B*!!!
there. its all out.
--GLARE--
--ROARRRRRRRR!!!--
RAAAAAHhHHHHHHHHHhHHH.
*smiles*
had chem mock spa and lect assessment todae. and now i'm having to slog my guts out cos i've got a multitude of homework piling up. I NEED A HOLIDAY!!!!!! arghs. i shall self-declare a holiday sometime and stay at home to finish all my work.
--pull hair. pull hair. pull hair.-
-consider two different worlds.
ahas.
` a lil message to chelle: my dear girl!!!! i heard all about it from zihua todae. YOU! you were supposed to be less accident-prone than me. sighs. tsk. PLEASE take care of yourself!!! tsktsk. haiyoyo. i've got nothing else to say. *gives chelle THAT disapproving look*. TSKTSKTSK.
went running with joan and qixin this morning before band. woots! felt like i havent ran in like years and it felt so good to finally be running todae. feel e stretch of e muscles. woots! ahas.
had some lunch with e band peeps before studying for e chem lect assessment. argh. i still don't really 100% understand thermochem, and my ionic equilibruim's way off and in a huge mess, pun not intended. and i'm forgetting all e functional groups for organic chem even now. hmmm. now wads a ketone? argh. forget it. ahas. organic chem reminds me of my quiz. lols. i got 10 out of 10. ahas. all thanks to zihua. for letting me copy her answer. ahas. and she got 7. which is like.. ahas. when we got back her paper she was like staring and staring at me. LOLS. cos i copied her answer and got full marks and she didn't. wahahhas. so wierd.
alrighty. i shall not deviate from my main focus todae, which is to complete this damned chaucer essay. so, i'm off to work!!! BYE!
oooh.
such mockery.
such irony.
life's a bitch.
inferiority complex. sigh.
`So if you're tired of the
Same old story
Turn some pages
I'll be here when you are ready
To roll with the changes
and i was late todae. almost. i did manage to run in through the gates on time though. and qixin was behind me. ahas. late! i'm always late.
wadever.
oh ya. i just killed a coackroach just now. a big, fat, flying one. yeps. felt so proud of myself. it flew into my room when i was doing some math sums and i freaked out. i ran round e house shouting and scolding e idiotic cockroach which din know better than to come and disturb me when i'm trying to solve math sums. argh.
anywaes, my mom came up and passed me a can of insecticide. AHAS. so i marched back upstairs to my room armed, and waited for e cockroach to give up trying to climb up the ceiling of my room. (really, that cockroach is plain uber stupid, trying to climb upside down on my ceiling. what did it tink it was? spiderman? hahs.)
it gave up trying to defy the law of gravity 30 mins later and decided to come down instead. AHAS. so i took e chance, held the can of insecticide tightly in my hand, aimed, and sprayed.
i tink i used up half e can of insecticide.
and it felt so good venting out my frustration on e irritating cockroach cos i couldn't do e math sums before it came and interrupted me.
hees.
and now i've finished sloggin e feasibility part for WR. at least, finished trying to describe the project in ard 500 words because we still havent interviewed e manufacturers and therefore i don't have enought information to put into e feasibility.
arghs.
anywaes that's tmr's work and i shall therefore leave it to tmr.
right now, wad i need is sleep.
i feel so drained.
alrights.
i'm outta here.
good morning! =)
--
-your name resounds in her head, even as she searches for you.
trying to find you, to see you. wanting to keep you in sight, to keep you in mind.
but everywhere she sees, she only manages to glimpse a shadow -- that thin disappearing shadow of you.
argh.
a war rages.
inferiority.
argh.
-
pw pw pw. driving me crazy. i dunnoe wad to write for feasibility. nothing to write about. i tink i'm super lazy. i'm like e only one in e group that does nothing! (jx does not count. ahas.)
-
i've got 2 essay and a part of a written report to rush. by.. today. heh.
-
daddy leaves for taiwan tmr.
-
like e faint marks an almost dried up marker leaves on the whiteboard, your name refuses to leave my head. i see it. going round. and round. and round. i hear it, echoing. again. and again. and again.
-
argh.
my life.
is.
in.
shambles.
$%@#
that was shit. not wad u were thinking.
*shrugs*
pw totally sucks. period.
I can't fight this feeling any longer
And yet i'm still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger
I only wish i had the strength to let it show
I tell myself that i can't hold out forever
I said there is no reason for my fear
Cause i feel so secure when we're together
You give my life direction
You make everything so clear
And even as i wander
I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winter's night
And i'm getting closer than i ever thought i might
And i can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what i started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever
Cause i can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what i started fighting for
And if i have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby, i can't fight this feeling anymore
My life has been such a whirlwind since i saw you
I've been running round in circles in my mind
And it always seems that i'm following you, girl
Cause you take me to the places that alone i'd never find
And even as i wander i'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window on a cold, dark winter's night
And i'm getting closer than i ever thought i might
And i can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what i started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever
Cause i can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what i started fighting for
And if i have to crawl upon the floor
Come crushing through your door
Baby, i can't fight this feeling anymore.
-
AhhhhhHhH!!!! i'm so pissed. kena accused by mummy of not doing any work yesterday. I DID OKAYS! i did differentiation. BAh. wadever la. HMPH. argh.
things for cyn to finish todae:
hahas. alrights. i'm not makin sense. but i don't think i need to. cos everything doesn't seem to make sense. hahas. i wonder why. hmmm. it must be differentiation, cos its all what i've been doing so far todae. so while i've been trying to do differentiation on math sums i've been unconsciously differentiating my brain cells. and i havent learnt integration yet. so my brain cells are left differentiated and because i cannot integrate back my brain cells, i'm not making sense. AHAS. that's it.
i shall go and change now.
then i shall go out.
i want a lift!!
alright. not as in the glass lift that willy wonka rides, cos its dangerous. you park it anywhere and u dunch rmb where you've parked it, you'll end up banging into it and you might get a concussion. and end up as mad as willy wonka. with lots of flashbacks. hahaha. no. you've got to look dazed and laff like willy wonka. like this. hahaha.
alrights. as i was saying, i do not want a lift like willy wonka's but i wuld prefer a lift to the place i'm having dinner. by CAR. hahas. yes. a car please. not a lift. hehes. but daddy and mummy are out and they've brought vincent and wilson out with them. to buy new SHOES. argh!! I WANT NEW SHOES. DADDY, I WANT A PAIR OF NEW SHOES.
no. bad idea. i dun wanna end up a bad nut like veruca. yeps. i oleadi have new sneakers, so what else do i want?!
well. i want more, of course.
HAHAS. *does e willy wonka laff*
alrighty. i tink this willy wonka has really gotten into me. hahaha. so i shall now be a good girl and turn my concentration to my organic chem notes. okays. up and out! WHEE~!!
watched batman begins at louisa's house. e movie's like confusing?! haaha. half e time i haf to ask e rest of e class who's e bad guy and who's e good guy. hahs.
anywaes todae was super fun =)
but i din do my homework =(
but i brought back my flute and tuner todae. hehes. gonna tune every note like wad andrew tells me to. =D
but e thing is... i've got like no time to practice?
alamak.
sigh.
nvm.
i'll make time.
i tink i need to be more disciplined.
RAHH.
c'mon cyn.
BAH.
wadever.
alrighty.
i'm gonna shower now.
BYE!
hmmm. i tink i'm disgusting. okays. not as in the person, but as in my tone. yuks. still super airy. i tink. yuks. and my technique is. well.. sumwhere out there. dunno where also. hahas. then cos i not sure how to play then i kept on stopping. bleahs. its horrible la. yuks yuks yuks. horrible horrible horrible and terrible. RAHHS. sigh. then everybody tells me to practice. budden i dunno wad to practice. BAH. never mind. anywaes i just want to thank everyone who helped listen out for me and tell me wad to improve on. thx guys =)
lalaaaa... i'm supposed to study cos i won't get to study for the next few days. hmmm. so wad am i doing online?!?! arghs. alrighty alrighty. i'm going offline to do work NOW!
study, cyn study. bleahs.
YAYS!!!!!!!!
*beams beams beams and grins*
*jumps up and down*
~lalaaaaaa.....
YAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i finally found and bought a new pair of shoes to my liking! my first pair of flats. =DD
YAYS!! hahas. if you haven't oleadi noticed, i'm super de duper uber happy!! hahas.
there was no band prac todae so i asked my mummy if she wanted to go parkway with me and shop shop a little. turns out that my lil bro also wants to go parkway get sth. so i went home to change into slippers and we went shopping! =)
can't help it. i've got to beam summore. hahas.
they're ballerina flats and so uber duper super cute. hahas. white and its sparkly. oh my. hehees. and at the toes there's this ribbon. the nice kind and not the ugly plain kind. hehes. so pretty. they look super sweet. esp when it is worn with a skirt. but it was't cheap. ard like 40 bucks. then we saw another pair like ard 60 bucks. but it was very comfortable and looked even nicer. and mummy offered to buy me the more ex one. so nice of her rite!! hahas. fancy spending 60 bucks on a pair of flats. splurge sia. but since i'm nice, i asked her to get me the first pair instead. =D
budden the difference in colour tone at my ankles are super ugly la. like got one line there. mummy says its not obvious but i tink it is. and its VERY obvious. and super ugly. BAH.
=D
oh and i bought new socks. yays. can throw the old loose ones away oleadi. i was super irritated with my pair of socks todae and i the end i ended but not wearing any socks. lucky todae no band so din get to run after band. if not i dunch noe wad am i supposed to run without socks. so uncomfortable!
i also bought fbts. black one cos my only ones are blue and blue fbts are not allowed when running. $&*^%&@#. dunno wads wrong with blue fbts la. they are like less transparent then black ones. anyhows, that isn't the point. the point is that i went shopping and bought almost everything i wanted to buy =) oh. except for a clip. budden there are no nice clips being sold in parkway so oh wells. ishall leave it to monday when i'm in town.
boo. todae i left my miyazawa in school cos i thought had band. budden in the end dun haf and i wasn't in school to bring it back. =( so wasted. todae's a good day to practice. bleaHs.
-
tsktsk. why is everyone's stomach feeling wierd these few days? hmmm. you've got to take care alrighty? hehes. LOVE <3
No, the serpent did not
Seduce Eve to the apple.
All that's simply
Corruption of the facts.
Adam ate the apple.
Eve ate Aam.
The serpent ate Eve.
This is the dark intestine.
The sepent, meanwhile,
Sleeps his meal off in Paradise-
Smiling to hear
God's querulus calling.
-Ted Hughes
alrighty. let's face it. mr guy-with-the-games-host-accent is good. i'm now in love with Fern. its beautiful. let's hope ted hughes has more of such beautiful works. and i hope we're studying more of them. hees.
miyazawa!! =)
headache! arghs. it got worse during band. cos now andrew makes me play 1st and i sit at the center. and e music surrounds. not that i'm complaining. its nice to be surrounded by music but not todae. it got kinda loud and my head started pounding. and occasionally my world would tilt on its axis. hmmm. and since i sat in between two pro people, i was like super stressed. the result? i couldn't even play simple bars. like crotchets. alamak. i tink timothy must be disgusted with me. i feel so....... loserfied.
now i haf to practice doubly hard.
now wad did i say about always not having enough time for everything? hmmm.
okays. anyhows i'm supposed to be doing my research on insecticides now. which i had oleadi procrestinated for like... 2 weeks? hmmm. mabbe 3. my group members must be mad at me. hehes. sorry guys. i'm gonna be a good girl and do it now alrighty? =)
btw phy SPA sucks. i din even noe how to set up. HAHAS.
wad a loser. BAH.
oh and i tink i bit my tongue yesterday when sleeping and its hurting like crazy todae. hahas.
now did i just said something about being a loser?
heh.
p.s: i tink my shoelaces are nice. but apparently the whole world seems to disagree with me. =(
i feel like a loser. again.
mr ho said something about the use of epithets todae.
hmmm.
mabbe if i say loser a few more times it won't appear to be so loser after all.
cyn is a loser. cyn is a loser. cyn is a loser.
alrighty.
time out.
-
cyn is STILL a loser. =(
cyn.
161288.
victorian.
vjc 05S43.
vjcsb.
tpjc (1st 3mths) 05S31.
tksian.
tkband.
khs.
flautist =)
all that i hold dear.
besties(: and lovely lovely friends.
family.
shopping, reading, lazing around.
sweet, pretty, striking colours.
swirls. stripes.
ice cream, chocolate, and the same few constants.