so many things to do. so little time. argh.
i need sleep!! RAHH. it's all that stupid cockroach's fault. idiot. ya i noe it dead oleadi but it bothers me to know that i have a dead cockroach in my bathroom. argh. stupid cockroach. it flew into my room and went straight for e fan and e fan hit it and sent it straight into my bathroom sink. pretty much dead it think. i don't know. i tink my fan split its wings. rahh. anywaes, serve it right. bah. there are too many cockroaches in my neighbourhood. yikes. i still rmb the incident aft e SA dance rapture when i was running away from cockroaches and i ended up being chased by a dog. AHHHHHHHHHHHH.
down with the whole of the cockroach species!
okays.
wadever.
space out.
chill. heees.
i'm bored.
i've loads of work to do. ARGH!!!!
i'm HUNGRY.
BAH.
i don't like my face.
rahh.
i've got back my normal weight.
yays!
but i'm still fat.
i'm gonna be overweight soon.
i wan watch the island!!
i've got super uber many things to do during the national day holidays.
buy heels buy clip buy sports shoes class outing section outing and outing with tuition bums.
5.
i've got converse sneakers!! hehes. pink and white. but e pink's baby pink and now my sneakers look sooo white. and i feel like stepping on it. but i can't, cos e shoes are new. snd new shoes should look.. NEW! ha ha. okies. not funny. anywaes, i want HOT PINK!! heheees. but its okays. i'll just go and buy hot pink laces... and heck qixin's protest. meheheheheees.
oh ya. talking about qixin. you noe wad happened to my tree house? its GONE. as in DISAPPEARED. as in VANISHED. as in...... ADACADABRA and.... POOF! at least that's wad i thought cos one dae i see it and e next dae wads left of my tree is.. sand and twigs. alamak. =( my lovely little tree house and its beautiful window/door is GONE!! *wails* and there's nth left that signifys its prescence before. not even a trace. boohoohoo. now i can no longer be neighbours with qixin. BOO.
they uprooted and evacuated my lovely tree =(
i read the blog.
i was touched. so so so touched.
i turned off the com and went into my room, prepared to sleep and let my thoughts sizzle and die down like they used to.
my emotions got the better of me.
i turned on the com again.
i just had to let you know.
to let you know that you're the bestest friend that anyone can haf and i love you dearly.
to let you know that i fear in many things that i do too, because you're not there, and i'm so alone.
i feel so so alone.
noone can understand and feel what our friendship was like.
our bond was special and.... special.
strong.
it was so you.
and it was just so me.
and in so, my definition of a best friend was set.
i had hoped to find a few more best friends.
that was during the time when everything was still.. young.
still ...pure.
still ...simple.
but now life's different.
after 4 months.
i came to know a different world.
a totally different place.
suffocating.
but i had to survive.
i had to.
i can't change this place, this world.
i have to learn to live with this aloneness.
and so, life's different now.
life's... i don't know. more jaded maybe? more cynical?
but i know one thing for sure.
i will only haf one best friend in my whole life.
because nothing's the same anymore.
nothing.
it just isn't the same.
the past life i lead allows the space for a best friend.
now this life doesn't allow me one.
i don't want to let you see through me now.
because, i know you'll be disappointed.
because, you'll be disheartened.
because, however hard you try to find, you wouldn't find me anymore.
i love you, i love us, and i love our bond even more.
simplicity in its purest form, yet so very strong.
i don't want to taint it.
when i remember us, i remember the world i used to live in.
but i can't go back anymore.
i can only go forward, on and on.
i can once look back with bittersweet memories, but i can never go back.
never.
i can't.
what else can i say?
i want to preserve this bond.
to keep it as an everlasting memory.
like a dried rose.
dead, but so alive in the once in a while reminiscing that i allow myself.
yes i know this friendship between us will die.
a month later. a year later. two years later. mabbe three?
i don't know.
but i know that it will never die in my memory.
simply because it is hard to forget.
i know that there's a chance of me hurting you by doing this.
i hurt.
but this is the only way i can think of to keep this bond alive in me.
i'm sorry.
i hope you understand.
i'm so very sorry. ='(((((
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i'm gonna haf swollen eyes tomorrow morn.
in life, when someone tells of his or her experiences, be it good or bad, it is hard for one to actually put oneself into e person's shoes and feel what e other person feels.
when you see someone's plight in life, its like watching a drama series on television. except that now you're now watching it on screen. call it reality show. hah.
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so many things have happened and i am glad that i've come to realise what is going on in my life, and around me. these things are so clase to my heart, but yet they seem so far away. whatever it is, i'm glad that they've shown me what life actually is. i'm glad that they had given a chance for me to see things in another light. i hope that i'm able to think in a more mature way now. i hope. hehes.
but there's still this small little teeny weeny part of me wanting to break away from reality and just DREAM.
just act on my whims and fancies, and sit there the whole day and think how nice it will be to slide down from one end of e rainbow to another and fall on cotton candy clouds (now that was e sweet-tooth talking).
just wanting to view the world through rose-tinted glasses (with probably a million spare pairs because i noe that life's clumsy and when one breaks i'll still haf nine hundred ninety-nine thousand nine hundred and ninety-nine pairs to wear. 999999 pairs. in short that's one million minus one pair. hehehes.) and believe what i see.
i just want to believe that this world is full of care.
that everyday is bright and sunny. (actually, with singapore's defination sunny, i'll rather a cloudy day).
hmm. loooks like e small part of me isn't small at all, huh. hees.
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i've got FLU!!!!! arfgh. so irritating. and i've got this bitter and brittle and dry feeling at e back of my throat. BAH. now i go everywhere sniffing and asking for tissue paper. RAHH.
e panadol hot relief drink for flu/cold thing isn't lemon flavored. its lemon SEED flavored. yuks.
looking forward to playing stress tmr =)
i'm lost.
those memories come flooding once so very often.
i'm drowning.
i miss everything.
i miss those days.
those laughter. and those snorts.
that stupid tone of yours when i get retarded (riiighttt.... okayyyyyyy. its like, totally man!)
the rolling of eyes.
the monkeyness.
the holding of toilet concerts. wahahas.
the thowing of tissue paper in e toilet.
the monkey guard =D
the ticklings.
the merlions.
the putting up of legs on e table..
and e disapproving frowns from mrs tan.
the games during pe =))
zero point. monkey. hahas.
the singing of off-key maroon 5 songs.
the composing of our own retarded songs.
the making fun of mrs chee.
the disturbing of others.
the wierd ideas that we come up with.
the all sorts of things that we talk about.
the bitching of some ppl =P
the wonderful lit discussions.
the banters.
the retardedness.
the lameness.
the exasperation. (that we haf for each other or others have towards us due to e absurdity of our amazingly retarded and stupid actions. hehehehhes.)
the cheekiness.
the playfulness.
the spirited-ness.
the liveliness of it all.
i miss them.
they're all gone now.
so absent.
so missing.
my life is so different now.
this mask is suffocating.
everyone is entittled to breathe.
i had to come up for air sometimes.
this is one of those times.
i miss my best friend.
was almost late for school. again. hehes.
felt funny in e morning. like very out of breath. i even panted when i spoke. and my jaws felt so heavy so i was slurring all my words in e morn. sounded so wierd. anyhows went for pe and i was like panting so hard after 1 round la! as in real hard. i could even hear myself. and zihua could also hear me. tsktsk. after that had floorball. heheheees. guys vs girls. and E GIRLS WON!!!! WAHAHAHAHAS. woots! girl power! heheeees. oh and i fell down. twice. hehes.
yea chelle. i can see e smug look and e big smirk on your face. bleahs. seems like e curse of falling down during games is catching up with me. din rmb falling down till todae. sigh.
oh! and i hit zihua with e floorball stick todae. accidentally. oops! SORRY GIRL!! hehees.
lit was boring. i wanted to smack e teacher with e game host wannabe accent. -slapslapslapslapslapslapSMACK. drop e irritating game host accent!!! its IRRITATING.
haahs. now i feel much better. BAH.
and now i'm feeling FAT. went with ah pek to parkway to buy chips! hehehes okies fine mabbe never went with him, but i bought it with him. and i waited for like 45 mins. -glare. hehes. anywaes now i'm eating it. kettle chips are nice! esp e honey dijon one! (okies fine. mabbe cos its e only favor i've tried. hehes) anyhows, this is its calory bleakdown. fat: 9 carbohydrates:4 protein:4. and e breakdown is for PER GRAM. and this packet (i bought e big one) has 28GRAMS. arghhhhhhhhh. great. now i REALLY feel very fat. shall not blog about it oleadi. BAH. i can actually feel e fats at my stomach. and my whole body. I'VE GOT A TUMMY!!! argh.
*sits down and cry*
okies. shall not talk about it. i'm gonna run 8675324265km tmr. =))))
alrighty. time out. temporary suspension of disbelief's over. sigh... =(((((
you faggin ingrate. i hope that you'll spend all e rest of your damned life living and writhing in agony.
and may your body be torn into seven parts by dogs in hell.
mabbe more than seven.
mabbe not dogs too. i tink wolves will do fine. haha. mabbe dinosours?
hehes.
hah.
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you can be lucky once, twice, thrice, even four times.
but you noe what, you can run but you can't hide.
i hope you get it and live in hell and be tortured for e rest of your cursed life.
in fact, i know you'll get it someday.
just wait.
wait for hell to open their gates to you.
haha.
i'll just watch you fade away.
your facade will be so torn apart.
finally.
haha.
i'll laugh.
oh ya. call it selective memory but just recalled it. yesterdae night when i was walking into my street i saw manimani cockroaches and i freaked out. so i ran away from then and in e end was chased by a dog which was locked out of e house. OHMY. dunnoe y e dog chased me also. must be cos it saw me run pass it. *shivers* luckily i wasn't bitten. phew. one hell of an experience.
lalaaa.......... i'm having pw now. bah
i want to drink honey
hot chocolate.
i want to watch the island
i want to watch charlie and e chocolate fac.
speaking of chocolate i'm in need of a sugar rush now.
rushrushrushrush........
bah.
this is getting random.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE..
mummy's down with high fever!! her temp's scary. argh. so worried. i hope she gets well soon.. as in SOON. bah.
i dunno how to boil potatoes!! alamak =X
sajc dance concert was fun =) hehes. they were good.
bah. i still wanna go learn. sumdae. mabbe after e As. and that's still longgggggggggggg. hehes. anyone wanna learn with me?
wetn with qixin to her dental appointment before e concert. e place is super nice la. hehes. after that went shopshop around orchard. wanted to go far east budden since me and qixin are equally sua ku, we couldn;t find e place. went to wisma instead. heees. shopped and looked ard. din manage to buy my heels and clip (argh i'm badly in need of a clip) but bought earings instead. woohoo~! bought one pair of stud and one pair of danglies. me and qixin shared and exchanged. heees. tmr gonna see if we got muo qi and put e same earing on e same ear not. hehehes.
met andrew and his friend in ps. ate dinner and we were late! e road was closed so e bus took a detour and we ended up like, half hour late? hees.
hees. and after e concert e four of us walked e highway from kallang theatre to suntec! hehes so fun la! e road was blocked and so there were no cars. me and qixin walked ON E ROAD itself. woots! so fun! its like, how many times do you get to walk on the road of e highway? hahas. then we walked backwards to see if there were any oncoming army trucks so we wun get knocked down. hehes. it was super fun.
oh and e road there was super freaky. we walked halfway then we heard some children's laughter. its like, OHMYTIAN. and i freaked out. then after that got like some strangled scream or sth. and i freaked out again. alamak. then when we were reaching suntec we saw a lone slipper on e pavement and we were like, why is there a slipper here? then we freaked out again and i almost ran all e way to suntec. okays fine. mabbe not all e way, but well, u get e point.
then when we reached parkway i was like sweating la. and went into suntec to look for hairband budden all e shops were closed.
after we reached suntec then me and qixin realised that since e road was closed, we can't take 14. so smart of us rite. walk all e way to suntec then realise. so we took train instead.
met ah pek at eunos and took 15 home with him. hehes. thanks for e chocs baby. it was super sweet of u =)
heees. was so friggin tired when i reached home. BAH. slept almost immediately. ZzzZZz
there are many things in life that are unfathomable. unpredictable. and you feel like you don't deserve the things that happen to you. i guess this is all part of life. what goes round comes round. what doesn't go round also comes round.
why?why why?
this wasn't deserved. never. could never be.
i noe your heart bleeds. mine bleeds too. but yet i'm like an outsider. detached. mabbe its my defensive shield that i've put into place. or mabbe i've just accepted it and it had became a fact, a part of my life. its as though it just is. or mabbe its been that bad for a period of time such that i'm not surprised that it has gotten worse. ya. mabbe that's it. i feel for you, i ache too. my heart is also shattered. the change wasn't great, but i have to admit, my life have never been the same since. i'm sure your life have never been the same since too. i can see it. in your eyes. in your actions.
trust is such a fragile thing. it shatters. and its hard to piece back together. trust is e basis of everything. everything is built on trust. when its gone, everything is gone. trust builds things. trust destroys. its destruction is.. hah.
sometimes i just wonder. i wonder.
this bond, this yok is beautiful.
to hell with it.
i can never feel what you feel. i can only catch a glimpse of it.
the hurt comes again and again. it tears at you.
i'm sorry for all the things i've done.
i guess i wan't mature enough. but i hope i am now. at least, mature enough to understand things.
my life have never been the same since.
i've seen what life can do to you.
you are strong. i know you are. please carry on being strong.
i don't know how i am going to carry on if you arn't.
whatever you do, i'll be behind you.
just know that whatever decisions you make, i'll respect it. and i'll support you.
fight on. carry on.
i love you. <3
lalaa. todae's super sian. first three periods no class. so decided to go school late. then when i reached school i saw TAN YEW HWEE (dunch noe how to spell) standing at e gate. BAH. so suay! e others who came late came abit earlier and din meet him. BAH. so i had to go home first cos i dunch wanna be caught. okies fine. i wrote down my name in e book. talk about being caught. i din wanna get caught and lectured by mr tan. luckily mummy din go bananas when i asked her to bring me home then fetch me to school again. hees.
so i din go for math lect. then when i turned up for lit, e cher din come and is on mc for "a long period of time". then we were so bored la. stay in class and do nth. hahas. we were playing wit e fone in e classroom and we realised that there was e extension for e classroom itself on e list of extentions. its like abit retarded la. hehs. then we were so bored we decide to try call e classroom itself and mabbe if we were fast enuff to hang up e fone will ring. HAHAS. so lame la. then i tried. and you noe what? E FONE RANG! as in, i dailed and could hear e dail tone. i freaked out la! mabbe they print worngly and e extention wasn't for e class but elsewhere. so freaky!!
then we became quite high after e incident and decide to amuse and entertain e econs ppl at e next class. hahas. they looked so dead and bored. hees. so we walked past e class and we bent down lower with each step so it looked funny. hahas. dinnoe if e cher saw us but i really hope she didn't if not we are in big trouble. HAHAS. so fun la.
todae i haf no gp lesson again. i tink e gp lesson on thurdsday is permenantly cancelled la. then i ended school at 2 plus and had to wait for qixin till 4 plus!! argh. then in e meantime i slacked in e band room.hees. played asshole taidee. rahh. i'm really lousy at it la. we played four rounds and four times i was e biggest asshole. BAH. wadever. hees.
anywaes, i'm off to bathe now. WHEE~!
`i'm really sorry todae for bugging and bugging you. bah. dunoe wads gotten into me todae. i noe you were tired and stuff and i tink that wasn't very considerate of me. i'm really sorry. forgive me okies? hees. LOVELOVE.
bah. heehes qixin's retarded. wahas. okies. shall not talk about her oeladi. hees. I LOVE MY TREE HOUSE WITH E BEAUTIFUL BIG WINDOW/DOOR!! hehees.
school's sianded. oh ya. got back my gp. its was okay. i din fail. WOOHOO~! hahas. erm. ya. hees.
had sectionals today. zhiyuan took us three first. HAHAS so farni la. he taught us how to hold e flute and how to play it. i felt like a sec one student just learning how to play e flute for e first time. HEHES. throughtout e whole thing i wanted to laff so badly. hahas. but cannot cos wad he's teaching's important. at e end of e whole thing i felt like saying thank you kor kor. HEHES. anyhows, el cam was okays today. but i keep on messing up e soli part. actually i was not sure if its me. was it me? hmm. i dunno lei. hahas. i couldn't hear myself. but i guess it was me la. i'm very de lousy so cannot be any other person. BLEAHS.
I'M SUPER AIRY LA! arghs.
todaes mummy came down with some virus attack. last time i also had but mine was with red spots all over me. budden mummy's virus caused her bones to ache and she had to move around e house like an old lady. sigh. poor mummy. you evil virus. go away and leave my mummy alone. do you hear me?! SHOO! argh.
okies gotta do my phy practical. bah. i need to redraw e whole frigging graph. RAHH. BYE.
I NEED PPL TO DO MY SURVEY! WHEE~!
hmm. i scalded my fingers! rahh. on sun (that was like. long ago.heh.) hahas. by warm (more like steaming) milk. anways since i've like applied half e tube of antiseptic cream on my fingers, they were saved.
when i took e cup of milk out of e microwave and spilled then over my fingers e first thing i did was to take e cloth to clean e mess up. then i realised how painful my fingers were after that. OMGoodness. i tink i'm a neat freak. sumhow. =X mummy ought to be glad. BAH.
went to parkway to buy small pebbles to eat. they're NICE! heheees.. YUMYUM =)
i've been spending like soo much money la. and its only like.. e second dae of school? plus i want to shop sop wit qixin on sat before going for e sajc dance concert. WOOTS! soo exciting! hahas. gonna shop for heels and earings. oh ya toking abt earings a bought a pair from qixin's fren today in school. they're not bad. hehes. ah pek says i look pretty in them. WAHAHAS. i always look pretty dear. hahas *gag* =P
anywaes i'm off to do my homework. still haf to discuss chaucer wit zhihua later. BAH. "weping and wailing, care and oother sorwe/ i knowe ynogh...... yadayadayada ....... whilom ther was dwellinge in Lumbardye/ a worthy knight, that born was of pavie.. yadayadayada...." BLAH. wadever. can't understand chaucer's english. BYE <3
argh. argh. AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i can't do a single frigging thing. i can't do oscillations, i can't do organic chem, i can't do trigo, i can't do vectors. i can't even complete and cross outa single frigging thing on my to-do list. and this list was made like, 1 week ago. argh. broke down. i tink i'm just plain, pure stupid. period.
it isn't the same anymore
we can't go back to what was before.
let the past stay as the past,
and what was stay as... well.. what was.
snapshots of memories.
the love.
the happiness.
its everywhere.
enveloping.
live the moment.
feel the joy.
what was that?
laughter.
rich laughter.
bubbling laughter.
no.
wait.
its fading.
its all but a strain now.
no.
don't go.
don't.
please.
no.
wait!
oh.
its gone.
silence.
so suffocating.
it just isn't the same anymore.
i'm sorry.
lalaaa... today's a crappy day. erm.... did a lil chem and math. still don't understand vectors. wadever. hees. I"M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING NOW!!
BYE.
i listened and followed e lecture closely for e first time! hahas. okies fine it wasn't e first but it was one of e few rare times. wahas. muahs to myself. woots! felt so happy.
then aft that got band at 5. and school ends at like, 1245 for me. still got like so long time. then me and qixin got nowhere to go. slacked in e band room and wandered around e school and finally went to e library to read books. wah. so long never read oleadi. now my reading speed is so slow la. found a nice book about murder and settled down on e sofa to read. but only had like less than an hour. so i tried speed reading (which isn't actually very fast now) and i only managed to read ard 70 plus pages. so sad. din manage to finish e book. BAH. e book's so interesting la. how i wish i could just flip throgh e book then i can absorb everything- all e words, e plot ect. woots! it would be like a movie la. hehes. anywaes wad i got after trying to finish e whole book within an hour was a super dry eye. i tink after that i looked like a goldfish la. then i was super blur at that point of time also. cos read until very groggy. hees. then my eye so dry i had to blink and blink and blink. so spastic. hahas. i tink ppl thought my eye kena spasm or sth. HAHAS.
band was okay. managed to keep up with e rest when playing el camino. all thanks to practise. woots! feel so happy! YAYS! =)
i'm not playing for college day anymore. so sad! i wanted to play one. it's like, so fun la. and it is in the pt. i've never played there before and i really dun mind playing there. as wad andrew says, its good exposure. budden timothy wants to haf an audition for e three of us. BAH. so bad la. so ostrasizing. so we all decided that since all 3 of us are so lousy that they bo bian haf to hold an audition, we'll do them and ourselves a favor and not play for college day. =( so sad. BOOHOOHOO. ='(
actually are things really that bad? we're not blaming anybody budden.. i mean. give us a break. its all very saddening. very very saddening. mabbe i'm just too sensitive. but again, maybe i'm not. just say what you want to say. dun do it so subtly cos its not very subtle and its very irritating. and you're not very friendly. ya i noe. time. but i really don't know. we can sense that u don't really like us. we don't really like you too. and we believe we haf the reason to.
sometimes i really wish that i could spread my wings and fly,
and soar straight into e comfort of the skies.
the day is done.
take a bow.
hush.
listen.
listen.
hear the sobs of joy,
the weeping laughter.
treading, treading
oh so softly.
fragile.
so fragile.
this thin line,
this camofludge.
home to me.
what you get is not what you see.
there is more than what meets the eye.
Does the eye really sees?
it does.
at least, i think it does.
it sees me.
or maybe not.
is it me it really sees?
i live.
everyday a new challange,
everyday is conquered.
yet i die a little within myself each day.
hah.
such triumphant victory.
a sweet bundle of roses.
i have everything.
everything doesn't matter
everything is nothing.
take a bow.
hush.
listen.
listen.
hear the sobs of joy,
the weeping laughter.
treading, treading
oh so softly.
fragile.
so fragile.
this thin line,
this camofludge.
home to me.
what you get is not what you see.
there is more than what meets the eye.
Does the eye really sees?
it does.
at least, i think it does.
it sees me.
or maybe not.
is it me it really sees?
i live.
everyday a new challange,
everyday is conquered.
yet i die a little within myself each day.
hah.
such triumphant victory.
a sweet bundle of roses.
i have everything.
everything doesn't matter
everything is nothing.
i can't believe i'm doing this. sacrificing my time to do this thing for him. i even made e card for him and everything. wonder if he's wooing the girl or i'm wooing e girl. tsktsk. wahas. i'm such a good sister. and e ladybird (which i thought was a caterpillar at first) is soooo cute. wahas. it rattles when u shake it. sooo cute! heees ^^
and i havent done my homework. BAH. i'm off to bathe and do my homework! eeee i stink! hees. wadever. byE!
sigh. yesterdae was really some day. i would just like to say sorry to everyone in e section. sorry guys. sorry to land everyone into trouble and let everyone get scolded. i'm really really sorry. forgive me ya? if not i can't forgive myself. everyone was like.. innocent la. sigh. its just like ms hoo to scold everyone esp those wit huge responsibilities. i'm super sorry. esp to those who were innocent. heck. zhiyuan wasn't even on e bus la! timothy was also innocent. andrew also. i mean, they dinnoe such a thing was gonna happen rite? sigh. sorry zhiyuan. sorry timothy. sorry andrew. sorry marcus. sorry qixin. sorry joan. sorry charissa. sorry yafen. sorry huimin. i'm sorry to haf left a black mark on everybody's names and on the section's name. i'm really really sorry. BAH. i tink if i had joined track all these wun haf happened. mabbe i'm not fated to join band. hee.
but before that incident the bus ride was like so fun la. hees. played sum farni game that marcus taught us. i tink we were rather noisy. hahas. then played e chinese game. bah. my chinese not good la. then they bo bian cos i cannot carry on. so we played e english version. hahas. i'm also lousy. had to recycle so many words.
the band fiesta itself was quite alright la. but it was with bad weather and all.
then when we reached back in school after e whole thing i went quite high. haas. i tink i was in hysterics la. was in e toilet with qixin when we saw a flying roach. then i was screaming cos i scared of them then qixin screamed also. then marcus turned off e toilet lights then me and qixin screamed again. has. then when she went out to on e light marcus popped out and scared her. she screamed and i also screamed. again. hahas. then the whole thing was so farni that i began laffing non stop. or rather it sounded like i was hypervendilating la. but the thing is i dun usually sound like this. i tink i was in hysterics. too many emotions inside me oleadi. then i sounded so farni i couldn't stop laffing. then qixin heard me laff then she also couldn't stop laffing. alamak. then when we finally walked out of the toilet we kena scared by marcus again. twice. hahas. alamak. i laffed till my stomach was uber pain. heh. but it was good. all my tears turned into laughter. but for the time being only. i cried like crazy when i reached home la. hehs. anywaes, sigh. dunnoe how to face the section oleadi la. todae saw zhiyuan and timothy but couldn't say hi to them. heck. i dun even dare look into their faces la. bah.
wadeva. i'll try to get pass this. goodness. i dun even dare to touch my flute oleadi la. wanted to borrow today and practice el camino but dun dare. sigh. wadever.
oh and i flunked my chem. haas. at least i did better for it than math. hahas. i got .5 marks more. heh. so good right? SLAP.
got ttn soon. gtg. BYE.
lalaa.. todae's super exciting. i laffed alot and i tink i looked like a crazy woman. hehes. anywaes we shall be systematic and start from e begining of e day.
todae had to go school early for e assembly band thing thing. rahh. had to reach school by 715. ehh i usually wake up at 7 one kays. rahh. so i had 3 ppl to wake me up minus my alarm clock. hees. my mom woke me up then my alarm clock woke me up then ah pek woke me up then qixin woke me up. hehes. so in e end i reached school pretty early ard 657? then went to keep beloved into my locker lest i loose it at home and at e same time i conveniently locked my fone in my locker too. how smart of me. has. and then i panic and thought i lost my fone. then when i recovered my fone and went down back to e band room it was like 717. BAH.
anywaes, qixin came late. BOO. girl u were e one who woke me up u noe. BLAH. cos e score for e national anthem was non-existent, i had a crash course from andrew and charissa. hehes. but still when we were supposed to play it proper i din manage to play it la. i only caught e trills and stuff. hees. then we played e victorian anthem concert version. hahas. aft finish playing it everyone was like staring up at e gallary. cos last time we used to play e march version then now we changed it. lols. anywaes they claimed that e concert version was in a way nicer, so wells.
e rest of school was boring, except that i slept during phy tut right in front of mr lee. hees. i've tried so hard not to slp in front of him for so long and i've officially failed. goodness. and i even dreamt/imagined that he was teaching us dynamics. then when i woke up i was so shocked to find him teaching us oscillations. then i went back to slp again and i dreamed/imagined that there was a 10 cent on e table. i woke up to find it not there. hehes. money face la me. hehes. even when slping i'm still thinking of money. wahas.
ooh i slept for like ard 1 period of chem lect too. then the lecturer was doing organic chem and i missed out on so much because i was sleeping. SLAP SLAP. BAH. pig la me. boos. anywaes now i haf to catch up wit chem and organic chem is like so confusing la. rahh. boo. bah. roar. wadeva.
oh and i almost fell down e stairs when going for lit tut. now that's scary.
aha. here comes e exciting part. starting from when zuo yi used louisa's fone to call me. hahas. my fone says louisa and when i answered there was this guy's voice saying "hello. where are you all now arh? you all finished lit oleadi not?" HAHAS. i was so SHOCKED okays. hees. uber SHOCKED. hahs. then couldn't stop laffing. anywaes zuo yi louisa and co (meaning e rest of s43) were apparently waiting at parkway BK. and zihua and i were buying carrot cake. hehes. so we decided to da bao and go over to join them. we were like almost at e bus stop then e 36 came. i flagged e bus and a girl wit her friends behind us also flagged e bus. e bus just went on and din stop. i was like, !&^#*&amp;amp;^$&%#*&^. (anywaes that din haf any meaning in case u decide to count) and e girl was like, eh call e company now and complain! then zi hua and i were imagining e bus reversing backwards to stop for them because of e complain. HAHAHAS. so farni la. was so tickled by it.
135 came right after and we got on it. then it stopped at parkway. okies it din really stopped at parkway la cos there were like 4 buses in front and it stopped WAY before e busstop. then i was like, #&^*^!#^&amp;$*&^!$ again so i told zi hua i was lazy to walk and asked her to wait until e bus reach e bus stop then press e bell. then u noe wad. E BUS NEVER DID REACH E BUS STOP. it pulled away there. HAHAS. zi hua was staring at me like she wanted to kill me. HAHAHAHAHAS. i was so shocked also la. but anywaes, we stopped at e next stop whick is frigging far and had to go opposite direction to take a bus back. HAHAS. so farni can. on e bus i was like laffing to myself la. tsktsk. hehes. then when i reached parkway qixin called and tld me she was going back to school. HAHAS. i was like, TWANG! i just finally reached parkway and now i haf to go back to school. HAHAS. i dinnoe wad got into me and started laffing all e way to bk. hehes.
talked rubbish wit e class (which at that point of time only comprise of louisa timothy and zuo yi). hahas. some very lame stuff la. expired star potatoes and honey stars. HAHAS. LAME LA louisa. hees.
then at 330 i had to go back cos i'm meeting qixin. so i almost left when zihua realised that i didn't touch e carrot cake a bit and she had had her bk lunch. then she wantd to catch me before i left. in e end she did sumthing which i will not say here. BAH. tan zihua. i feel so molested! ARGH. HAHAS. anywaes i was so tickled again and smiled to myself all e way back to band. hees.
played daidi with alvin qixin jessie and totang. hahas. i was e king for e first time and e biggest asshole for e second. lols. so farni. yepps. aft that then band started as usual after e stepdown of e tae club or sth liddat. ya. joan qixin and i agree that we felt so out of place at that point of time la. we were like, wads a tae club. heh. WE ALL MISS E SECTIONAL OUTING ON WED!! it was like so fun la and it felt like we were in vjcsb forever and are not like, newcomers. okies i'm not sure abt e rest la but that's for me. yeps. oh and i'm scared of e senior also. wads her name? ehh. oh yafen i tink. rahh. i tink she looks scary. hees.
anyhows, that e end of my exciting dae. WAHAS. shall blog soon. BYE.
din blog for quite some time. hmm. quite a lot of things happened. lemme just surmarise it in words. ya i noe its like duh that its in words but that's not e point. hees.
sunday: pissed my dad off and he also pissed me off. period. shall not talk abt it.
oh e new maid came too. yays. no more housework for me. =)
monday: went suntec with ah pek. 4 months. =) ate NYDC. yum. so sinful. rahh. i need to burn those calories. watched war of the worlds. not bad. a bit bloody. and a tad too scary. for me. hehes. i'm a loser. oops. hees.
oh and i've got a wabbit! another wabbit this time wit a carrot. super cute can. =)
tuesday: was late. rushed in just before e gate was closed. actually... it was that e councilor waited for me before she closed the gate and in e end she got scolded by mr tan. booboos. sorry to whoever that person is. and thanks for waiting for me.
i forgot wad class i'm in. RAHH. can't believe it. rushed into e hall to find out that e arrangements changed. then asked a guy who happened to be beside me if he knew where my class was. i told him i was in s63 and in phoenix. he just stared at me. lols. sigh. luckily i saw ms rajan. phew.
i split my toenail! rahh. so painful. i cut e half out. ouch. it hurts. then was supposed to run wit zihua tmr but now cannot oleadi. sads. aha. then i had a breakdown. over sum farni thing. actually it wasn't farni la. it was ugly. but then again, its supposed to be trivial and ( according to zihua) good for me?!
wednesday: was late again. bah. but luckily 1st period was pw. so i knew e class.
gained dunno how many calories during lit. ARGH. i know mr ho was being nice budden. sigh. he shuld haf told us e calories that one teeny weeny jellybean contained. argh. i ate like.. dunno how many?! i just kept on eating and munching throughout e whole two periods. so now i haf to cut down even more calories. BAH.
had band. i'm still as lousy as usual. geez. anyways. went wit e section to PS minus charissa and timothy. had alot of fun in e bus. hahs. taking fotos and all. and trying to find out which country won. aARGH. i wanted paris to win!!! bahh. anyhows, we got into ps and started looking for polo tees. went to hang ten budden e guys and e girls polo tee was like diff colour. as in e collar. yeps. ours was white. so zhiyuan said cannot. e cher dun allow. so we went polo tee hunting. went to gordiano. then found e tee at baleno. went to eat. was starving cos i practically survived on ice lemon tea e whole day. oh ya i forgot. i ate chicken rice at 915. hees. anywaes that was like.. long time ago. went to e food court and ate. couldn't finish my food as usual. i tink me and qixin should haf shared one plate of food. dunneed waste. sigh. then we ked abit then left. reached home tired la. din do my chem and phy tut. sigh. two days in a row. i promise that i'm gona touch it at least within e next 2 days. hehes.
today: hahas. as u can see, i'm still at home. going to school late. 1st 3 periods are free periods. might as well stay home and wash hair. din wash yest and felt so uncomfortable. whee~! now is so much better. waiting for it to dry.
*grumbles* i'm actually supposed to stay at home to do my tut. bahh. wadeva. oh did i tell u. i flunked my math. big time. 33. hmm. 2 marks short of an O. i tink. how many marks is an O anyway. bahh.
that's it. shall blog soon. i hope. hehes.
` sigh. its all about me. i'm sorry baby.
hmm. let's just not talk about this morning. felt so lousy. wad e hell. i AM lousy. lack of practice. i seem to lack practice in everything i do. argH.
i promise that i'm gonna practice and practice. my tone sucks.
okies enuff abt e sad stuff. let's go on to sadder stuff. i din went to eat at NYDC and din go shopping today. =(
but i got my famous amos =)
and i got to play roseon. yays!!! and i ate bread for lunch =D i love bread. i love bread talk =DD
YAYS~!